Ricky returns! Ricky first featured with us at our year anniversary in June 2017. We’ve become awesome FFriends since and we really wanted Ricky to come back and share his story of the last year. His feature with us in 2017 was based on the events following the tragedy at Grenfell. Ricky is a firefighter and was one of many there on the day of the disaster. The experience that day changed his life forever. In order to try and process the impact he experienced, he expressed his feelings through poetry - something he has turned to since he was very young. It’s a form of expression that until recently he had concealed, his reasons being ‘It’s not a medium that is deemed very manly’ and as society dictates his job as the optimum of masculinity you can see why he would have reservations to vocalise this. However he took the courage to share his poem with social media and as a result of it’s reach, his poem was made into a short feature film called ’The fire fighter’ (at this point in the evening there wasn’t a dry eye in the house). Ricky went on to share with us his battle with PTSD and depression, how it presented a version of himself that he wasn’t totally comfortable with and his quest to be a better person (physically and mentally) and improve his relationship with the world that he see’s was vital to his fight for survival away from substances and alcohol misuse that he had also fallen into. He knew poetry was his clean salvation so he started to use it as a positive method to face other deep rooted fears he hadn’t ever really challenged. Ricky shared three of his extremely moving poems with us, the third being called ’The key’, an open and heart wrenching poem about his abusive step father. Ricky took us on a journey through out of control and the darkness that surrounded him to back in control to the light that now shines through him.